well, today
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i sent myself on quite a roller coaster!
i had a weird looking red mark on my leg
and after a night of no sleep
i unconsciously checked the internet for
"red skin patch"
(badbadbad)
the first thing that came up
was
"red patch on skin- THE FIRST SIGN OF SKIN CANCER"
*all the blood retracts back into my heart*
so for the rest of the morning i pace around worried
sick
literally
unable to eat
and crying every time i looked at Willow
thinking she might grow up without her mum.
:(((
(gosh it's a scary thing loving this BIG!!!)
i eventually bundled Willow up and went over to Pam and Carl's house
unable to be alone with this terrible thought
and broke down.
then I went to the doctor and
he took one look at it and said
exima
however it spelt (i'm not looking it up)
and gave me some cream,
told me if it's not cleared up in 10 days
come back,
in the meantime,
DON'T WORRY
i realise that
I REALLY LOVE MY LIFE
today.
i want to grow up with my daughter
and my husband
and my family
Love is
all
that matters
and
i am absolutely astounded at how anyone can deal
with the grief of losing a loved one.
Love, life and death are strange things
every moment is precious
8 comments:
*hug*
life is just very strange all over... everything about it...
Oh, Kerstin, how scary. Sometimes I curse the internet!
Love so big and beautiful ..... the strongest of all emotions.
Hugs.
oh no dear, it's an Eczema. Hope your skin will be completely cured, sweetie. If it doesn't work, go to visit a doctor ASAP. *hugs* Stay strong and brave, my wonderful friend. *kisses*
I agree with you, I really love my life. Life, love and death is quite strange. *hugs* I'm so happy that your true faith still stays stronger. You are so beloved, sis. :)
liz,
*HUG*
yes it is, it's like there's an opposite emotion to every emotion, if you can feel really really happy then there exists the ability to feel really really crappy. :P
lets dabble more in the happy happy
i have sparkles on my computer, that's good hey! ;)
i stuck them on, little nail stickers are way better on other things. hehee
mum,
uhuh the internet has a habit of being a drama queen, haha. Mars usually insists i don't go there to look up health related things. I should listen to him more often. ;)
mall,
'eczema' ahh, but hurray i think the cream is working already!
yay!!! *bouncebouncebounce!*
*hugs& kisses*
thankyou for your well wishes sweetie.
ppsssttt sweetie, check this elf slippers *giggles*
and look at these cool hip bags i think this seems suitable for you so you can pick acorns, nuts and other magical elements around the forest floor and put them in your hip bag! tee hee!
ahh mall,
you know me too well!
both those are just addorable!
i have a pair of pink felt elf slippers on my feet at the moment, they have lasted 2 years already and are so warm! I keep mending them and adding decorations.
:)
And i also have a little leather hip bag, i bought it in Australia before i came! it is so handy! especially to carry magical trinkets!
:D
*hugs*
thanks for sharing sweetie
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